O Novo Ecléctico

E quase em Março a Tanty Ungureanu, excepcional tradutora com quem tive o privilégio de trabalhar, envia-me a sua última tradução. Ainda não tive tempo de ler mas já folheei. Apesar de vir rotulado como romance, parece-me prosa poética de rara qualidade. Voltarei ao livro em posterior leitura mas, e porque sei que a Tanty tem bom gosto, recomendo desde já o livro até porque vem de uma nova editora com aposta clara em faixas de mercado marginais.

Li hoje com muita atenção quase todas as escutas transcritas e apenas consigo dizer uma coisa. E nem é que me tenha surpreendido mas revela aquilo que eu já esperava daqueles que nos governam, daqueles que estão em altos cargos: que mau português, que chorrilho de palavrões e asneiradas.

Como dizia uma professora minha de antigamente: era lavar-lhes a boca com sabão.

Mas, se pensarmos um pouco, chegaremos facilmente à conclusão que este nível de linguagem não mais faz do que realmente evidenciar a grande falta de educação e valores dessa gente que mais parece serem putos no recreio de uma secundária a quererem armar em bons vendo quem usa mais calão e palavrões. Depois as pessoas admiram-se que a governação, que as decisões e ordens façam sentido... nem falar eles sabem!

O filme chama-se «Su excellencia» e tem bem mais de 40 anos. Nele, o retrato da política mundial, apesar de algumas grandes mudanças, é notável enquanto lição sobre a política internacional e prova o quão ridículos continuamos a ser na nossa pequenez.

Percam uma meia hora e garanto-vos que não irão arrepender-se.


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Há poucos minutos recebi um telefonema inesperado. Ligava-me a minha tradutora de islandês. Já não falava om a Gudlaug há bastante tempo. Pouco tempo antes da crise ter "rebentado" na Islândia tinha regressado ao seu país com marido (português) e filhos à procura de uma situação melhor após muitos anos em Portugal. Basicamente passámos mais de meia hora a comparar um país surpreendido por uma crise inesperada e outro onde a crise está já tão entranhada que as pessoas nem percebem o quadro global pavoroso em que se vive. Creio que ficamos ambos algo aliviados quanto às nossas situações não muito favoráveis. Mas tive de lamentar pois por lá, apesar da surpresa, apesar das reacções que tornaram a sociedade muito mesquinha e conturbada em tão pouco tempo, também se nota que o povo se uniu no objectivo de ultrapassar a situação. Quanto a nós por cá, continuamos a tentar encontrar o culpado e passar a perna ao vizinho.Quem me dera saber islandês porque, por mim, aposto na Islândia.

Saudações ...Tuesday, February 16, 2010 3:38 PM From: "Ahmed Jamad" To: undisclosed-recipientsSaudações ...

Enquanto você lê este, não sentir pena de mim porque é o destino do homem comum para morrer someday.I am Jamad Ahmed, um britânico naturalizado pelo nascimento e um comerciante de negócio baseado no Reino Unido. Eu fui diagnosticado com cancer.It esôfago tem violado todas as formas de tratamento médico, e agora tenho apenas alguns meses para viver, segundo os peritos médicos. Eu lamento não ter vivido a minha vida particular tão bem, como eu nunca realmente importava para alguém (nem mesmo eu), mas o meu comércio. Embora eu estou muito bem para fazer, eu nunca fui abrir mão, eu sempre foi hostil às pessoas e os considerava como nunca tinha esperanças de se tornar tão bem sucedidos como eu. Agora eu sei que há muito mais a vida do que apenas a prosperidade. Eu acredito que quando eu estou dando uma segunda chance para vir a este mundo, gostaria de viver minha vida de uma maneira diferente de como eu vivi isso. Agora que a morte é eminente, eu tenho vontade e tendo a maioria dos meus pertencentes a membros da família imediata e prolongada, bem como alguns amigos próximos. Eu quero que Deus tenha misericórdia de mim e aceitar a minha alma. Daí eu ter decidido apoiar o trabalho de caridade, que é o que eu quero ser lembrado. Até agora, eu tenho sido capaz de chegar a uma poucas organizações de caridade no Brasil, Argélia e Malásia. Agora que minha saúde deteriorou-se tão mal, eu não posso fazer isto sozinho anymore. Certa vez, pediu aos membros da minha família para me ajudar na doação de esmolas a essas organizações de turismo para os menos privilegiados na Bulgária e no Paquistão; eles se recusaram e manteve os recursos para si próprios. Por isso, eu não confio mais deles, pois eles não parecem ser o desprezo com o que me resta para eles.

O último da minha pertença, que ninguém conhece, é o enorme depósito de nove milhões de euros (9,000,000.00) que eu tenho em uma empresa se manter seguro no exterior, o que eu quero que você segura e conceder às organizações de caridade.

Por favor, esforçar-se para responder-me via e-mail (a.jamad @ yahoo.com.hk) para o seu tempo e dedicação, tenho reservado um décimo disso para você.

Que Deus esteja com você.

Ahmed Jamad.
a.jamad @ yahoo.com.hk
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Há uns anos que recebo regularmente e-mails destes e sempre me deliciei com a sua qualidade e originalidade. Mas este é o primeiro em (cof, cof) português. Viva o Babel Fish (tm).

Durante anos vimos como os países ricos exportavam os seus lixos e resíduos tóxicos para os países pobres. Assistíamos às manifestações contra os comboios que saiam da Alemanha para os países de leste prenhes de podridão e doença. Mas os tempos mudam e a anunciada vingança faz-se sentir. Hoje, mais uma vez, Portugal dá o exemplo: Vítor Constâncio é exportado para a presidência do BCE.

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Num cartão enviado à minha avó:

«Se sair, saia só, sim?
Sou só seu.
Serafim Sá Souza»

O Conto que agora apresento é dos meus favoritos, é um conto sobre a natureza humana e, muito também, sobre a necessidade ecológica. Primeiro segue o texto do original francês e em seguida uma notável animação de um dos mais premiados cineastas de animação do Canadá.

L'homme qui plantait des arbres, por Jean Giono (retirado daqui)

Pour que le caractère d'un être humain dévoile des qualités vraiment exceptionnelles, il faut avoir la bonne fortune de pouvoir observer son action pendant de longues années. Si cette action est dépouillée de tout égoïsme, si l'idée qui la dirige est d'une générosité sans exemple, s'il est absolument certain qu'elle n'a cherché de récompense nulle part et qu'au surplus elle ait laissé sur le monde des marques visibles, on est alors, sans risque d'erreurs, devant un caractère inoubliable.

Il y a environ une quarantaine d'années, je faisais une longue course à pied, sur des hauteurs absolument inconnues des touristes, dans cette très vieille région des Alpes qui pénètre en Provence.

Cette région est délimitée au sud-est et au sud par le cours moyen de la Durance, entre Sisteron et Mirabeau; au nord par le cours supérieur de la Drôme, depuis sa source jusqu'à Die; à l'ouest par les plaines du Comtat Venaissin et les contreforts du Mont-Ventoux. Elle comprend toute la partie nord du département des Basses-Alpes, le sud de la Drôme et une petite enclave du Vaucluse.

C'était, au moment où j'entrepris ma longue promenade dans ces déserts, des landes nues et monotones, vers 1200 à 1300 mètres d'altitude. Il n'y poussait que des lavandes sauvages.

Je traversais ce pays dans sa plus grande largeur et, après trois jours de marche, je me trouvais dans une désolation sans exemple. Je campais à côté d'un squelette de village abandonné. Je n'avais plus d'eau depuis la veille et il me fallait en trouver. Ces maisons agglomérées, quoique en ruine, comme un vieux nid de guêpes, me firent penser qu'il avait dû y avoir là, dans le temps, une fontaine ou un puits. Il y avait bien une fontaine, mais sèche. Les cinq à six maisons, sans toiture, rongées de vent et de pluie, la petite chapelle au clocher écroulé, étaient rangées comme le sont les maisons et les chapelles dans les villages vivants, mais toute vie avait disparu.

C'était un beau jour de juin avec grand soleil, mais sur ces terres sans abri et hautes dans le ciel, le vent soufflait avec une brutalité insupportable. Ses grondements dans les carcasses des maisons étaient ceux d'un fauve dérangé dans son repas.

Il me fallut lever le camp. A cinq heures de marche de là, je n'avais toujours pas trouvé d'eau et rien ne pouvait me donner l'espoir d'en trouver. C'était partout la même sécheresse, les mêmes herbes ligneuses. Il me sembla apercevoir dans le lointain une petite silhouette noire, debout. Je la pris pour le tronc d'un arbre solitaire. A tout hasard, je me dirigeai vers elle. C'était un berger. Une trentaine de moutons couchés sur la terre brûlante se reposaient près de lui.

Il me fit boire à sa gourde et, un peu plus tard, il me conduisit à sa bergerie, dans une ondulation du plateau. Il tirait son eau - excellente - d'un trou naturel, très profond, au-dessus duquel il avait installé un treuil rudimentaire.
Cet homme parlait peu. C'est le fait des solitaires, mais on le sentait sûr de lui et confiant dans cette assurance. C'était insolite dans ce pays dépouillé de tout. Il n'habitait pas une cabane mais une vraie maison en pierre où l'on voyait très bien comment son travail personnel avait rapiécé la ruine qu'il avait trouvé là à son arrivée. Son toit était solide et étanche. Le vent qui le frappait faisait sur les tuiles le bruit de la mer sur les plages.

Son ménage était en ordre, sa vaisselle lavée, son parquet balayé, son fusil graissé; sa soupe bouillait sur le feu. Je remarquai alors qu'il était aussi rasé de frais, que tous ses boutons étaient solidement cousus, que ses vêtements étaient reprisés avec le soin minutieux qui rend les reprises invisibles.

Il me fit partager sa soupe et, comme après je lui offrais ma blague à tabac, il me dit qu'il ne fumait pas. Son chien, silencieux comme lui, était bienveillant sans bassesse.
Il avait été entendu tout de suite que je passerais la nuit là; le village le plus proche était encore à plus d'une journée et demie de marche. Et, au surplus, je connaissais parfaitement le caractère des rares villages de cette région. Il y en a quatre ou cinq dispersés loin les uns des autres sur les flans de ces hauteurs, dans les taillis de chênes blancs à la toute extrémité des routes carrossables. Ils sont habités par des bûcherons qui font du charbon de bois. Ce sont des endroits où l'on vit mal. Les familles serrées les unes contre les autres dans ce climat qui est d'une rudesse excessive, aussi bien l'été que l'hiver, exaspèrent leur égoïsme en vase clos. L'ambition irraisonnée s'y démesure, dans le désir continu de s'échapper de cet endroit.

Les hommes vont porter leur charbon à la ville avec leurs camions, puis retournent. Les plus solides qualités craquent sous cette perpétuelle douche écossaise. Les femmes mijotent des rancoeurs. Il y a concurrence sur tout, aussi bien pour la vente du charbon que pour le banc à l'église, pour les vertus qui se combattent entre elles, pour les vices qui se combattent entre eux et pour la mêlée générale des vices et des vertus, sans repos. Par là-dessus, le vent également sans repos irrite les nerfs. Il y a des épidémies de suicides et de nombreux cas de folies, presque toujours meurtrières.
Le berger qui ne fumait pas alla chercher un petit sac et déversa sur la table un tas de glands. Il se mit à les examiner l'un après l'autre avec beaucoup d'attention, séparant les bons des mauvais. Je fumais ma pipe. Je me proposai pour l'aider. Il me dit que c'était son affaire. En effet : voyant le soin qu'il mettait à ce travail, je n'insistai pas. Ce fut toute notre conversation. Quand il eut du côté des bons un tas de glands assez gros, il les compta par paquets de dix. Ce faisant, il éliminait encore les petits fruits ou ceux qui étaient légèrement fendillés, car il les examinait de fort près. Quand il eut ainsi devant lui cent glands parfaits, il s'arrêta et nous allâmes nous coucher.

La société de cet homme donnait la paix. Je lui demandai le lendemain la permission de me reposer tout le jour chez lui. Il le trouva tout naturel, ou, plus exactement, il me donna l'impression que rien ne pouvait le déranger. Ce repos ne m'était pas absolument obligatoire, mais j'étais intrigué et je voulais en savoir plus. Il fit sortir son troupeau et il le mena à la pâture. Avant de partir, il trempa dans un seau d'eau le petit sac où il avait mis les glands soigneusement choisis et comptés.
Je remarquai qu'en guise de bâton, il emportait une tringle de fer grosse comme le pouce et longue d'environ un mètre cinquante. Je fis celui qui se promène en se reposant et je suivis une route parallèle à la sienne. La pâture de ses bêtes était dans un fond de combe. Il laissa le petit troupeau à la garde du chien et il monta vers l'endroit où je me tenais. J'eus peur qu'il vînt pour me reprocher mon indiscrétion mais pas du tout : c'était sa route et il m'invita à l'accompagner si je n'avais rien de mieux à faire. Il allait à deux cents mètres de là, sur la hauteur.

Arrivé à l'endroit où il désirait aller, il se mit à planter sa tringle de fer dans la terre. Il faisait ainsi un trou dans lequel il mettait un gland, puis il rebouchait le trou. Il plantait des chênes. Je lui demandai si la terre lui appartenait. Il me répondit que non. Savait-il à qui elle était ? Il ne savait pas. Il supposait que c'était une terre communale, ou peut-être, était-elle propriété de gens qui ne s'en souciaient pas ? Lui ne se souciait pas de connaître les propriétaires. Il planta ainsi cent glands avec un soin extrême.
Après le repas de midi, il recommença à trier sa semence. Je mis, je crois, assez d'insistance dans mes questions puisqu'il y répondit. Depuis trois ans il plantait des arbres dans cette solitude. Il en avait planté cent mille. Sur les cent mille, vingt mille était sortis. Sur ces vingt mille, il comptait encore en perdre la moitié, du fait des rongeurs ou de tout ce qu'il y a d'impossible à prévoir dans les desseins de la Providence. Restaient dix mille chênes qui allaient pousser dans cet endroit où il n'y avait rien auparavant.

C'est à ce moment là que je me souciai de l'âge de cet homme. Il avait visiblement plus de cinquante ans. Cinquante-cinq, me dit-il. Il s'appelait Elzéard Bouffier. Il avait possédé une ferme dans les plaines. Il y avait réalisé sa vie. Il avait perdu son fils unique, puis sa femme. Il s'était retiré dans la solitude où il prenait plaisir à vivre lentement, avec ses brebis et son chien. Il avait jugé que ce pays mourait par manque d'arbres. Il ajouta que, n'ayant pas d'occupations très importantes, il avait résolu de remédier à cet état de choses.

Menant moi-même à ce moment-là, malgré mon jeune âge, une vie solitaire, je savais toucher avec délicatesse aux âmes des solitaires. Cependant, je commis une faute. Mon jeune âge, précisément, me forçait à imaginer l'avenir en fonction de moi-même et d'une certaine recherche du bonheur. Je lui dis que, dans trente ans, ces dix mille chênes seraient magnifiques. Il me répondit très simplement que, si Dieu lui prêtait vie, dans trente ans, il en aurait planté tellement d'autres que ces dix mille seraient comme une goutte d'eau dans la mer.

Il étudiait déjà, d'ailleurs, la reproduction des hêtres et il avait près de sa maison une pépinière issue des faînes. Les sujets qu'il avait protégés de ses moutons par une barrière en grillage, étaient de toute beauté. Il pensait également à des bouleaux pour les fonds où, me dit-il, une certaine humidité dormait à quelques mètres de la surface du sol.

Nous nous séparâmes le lendemain.
L'année d'après, il y eut la guerre de 14 dans laquelle je fus engagé pendant cinq ans. Un soldat d'infanterie ne pouvait guère y réfléchir à des arbres. A dire vrai, la chose même n'avait pas marqué en moi : je l'avais considérée comme un dada, une collection de timbres, et oubliée.

Sorti de la guerre, je me trouvais à la tête d'une prime de démobilisation minuscule mais avec le grand désir de respirer un peu d'air pur. C'est sans idée préconçue - sauf celle-là - que je repris le chemin de ces contrées désertes.

Le pays n'avait pas changé. Toutefois, au-delà du village mort, j'aperçus dans le lointain une sorte de brouillard gris qui recouvrait les hauteurs comme un tapis. Depuis la veille, je m'étais remis à penser à ce berger planteur d'arbres. « Dix mille chênes, me disais-je, occupent vraiment un très large espace ».

J'avais vu mourir trop de monde pendant cinq ans pour ne pas imaginer facilement la mort d'Elzéar Bouffier, d'autant que, lorsqu'on en a vingt, on considère les hommes de cinquante comme des vieillards à qui il ne reste plus qu'à mourir. Il n'était pas mort. Il était même fort vert. Il avait changé de métier. Il ne possédait plus que quatre brebis mais, par contre, une centaine de ruches. Il s'était débarrassé des moutons qui mettaient en péril ses plantations d'arbres. Car, me dit-il (et je le constatais), il ne s'était pas du tout soucié de la guerre. Il avait imperturbablement continué à planter.

Les chênes de 1910 avaient alors dix ans et étaient plus hauts que moi et que lui. Le spectacle était impressionnant. J'étais littéralement privé de parole et, comme lui ne parlait pas, nous passâmes tout le jour en silence à nous promener dans sa forêt. Elle avait, en trois tronçons, onze kilomètres de long et trois kilomètres dans sa plus grande largeur. Quand on se souvenait que tout était sorti des mains et de l'âme de cet homme - sans moyens techniques - on comprenait que les hommes pourraient être aussi efficaces que Dieu dans d'autres domaines que la destruction.

Il avait suivi son idée, et les hêtres qui m'arrivaient aux épaules, répandus à perte de vue, en témoignaient. Les chênes étaient drus et avaient dépassé l'âge où ils étaient à la merci des rongeurs; quant aux desseins de la Providence elle-même, pour détruire l'oeuvre créée, il lui faudrait avoir désormais recours aux cyclones. Il me montra d'admirables bosquets de bouleaux qui dataient de cinq ans, c'est-à-dire de 1915, de l'époque où je combattais à Verdun. Il leur avait fait occuper tous les fonds où il soupçonnait, avec juste raison, qu'il y avait de l'humidité presque à fleur de terre. Ils étaient tendres comme des adolescents et très décidés.

La création avait l'air, d'ailleurs, de s'opérer en chaînes. Il ne s'en souciait pas; il poursuivait obstinément sa tâche, très simple. Mais en redescendant par le village, je vis couler de l'eau dans des ruisseaux qui, de mémoire d'homme, avaient toujours été à sec. C'était la plus formidable opération de réaction qu'il m'ait été donné de voir. Ces ruisseaux secs avaient jadis porté de l'eau, dans des temps très anciens. Certains de ces villages tristes dont j'ai parlé au début de mon récit s'étaient construits sur les emplacements d'anciens villages gallo-romains dont il restait encore des traces, dans lesquelles les archéologues avaient fouillé et ils avaient trouvé des hameçons à des endroits où au vingtième siècle, on était obligé d'avoir recours à des citernes pour avoir un peu d'eau.

Le vent aussi dispersait certaines graines. En même temps que l'eau réapparut réapparaissaient les saules, les osiers, les prés, les jardins, les fleurs et une certaine raison de vivre.

Mais la transformation s'opérait si lentement qu'elle entrait dans l'habitude sans provoquer d'étonnement. Les chasseurs qui montaient dans les solitudes à la poursuite des lièvres ou des sangliers avaient bien constaté le foisonnement des petits arbres mais ils l'avaient mis sur le compte des malices naturelles de la terre. C'est pourquoi personne ne touchait à l'oeuvre de cet homme. Si on l'avait soupçonné, on l'aurait contrarié. Il était insoupçonnable. Qui aurait pu imaginer, dans les villages et dans les administrations, une telle obstination dans la générosité la plus magnifique ?
A partir de 1920, je ne suis jamais resté plus d'un an sans rendre visite à Elzéard Bouffier. Je ne l'ai jamais vu fléchir ni douter. Et pourtant, Dieu sait si Dieu même y pousse ! Je n'ai pas fait le compte de ses déboires. On imagine bien cependant que, pour une réussite semblable, il a fallu vaincre l'adversité; que, pour assurer la victoire d'une telle passion, il a fallu lutter avec le désespoir. Il avait, pendant un an, planté plus de dix mille érables. Ils moururent tous. L'an d'après, il abandonna les érables pour reprendre les hêtres qui réussirent encore mieux que les chênes.

Pour avoir une idée à peu près exacte de ce caractère exceptionnel, il ne faut pas oublier qu'il s'exerçait dans une solitude totale; si totale que, vers la fin de sa vie, il avait perdu l'habitude de parler. Ou, peut-être, n'en voyait-il pas la nécessité ?
En 1933, il reçut la visite d'un garde forestier éberlué. Ce fonctionnaire lui intima l'ordre de ne pas faire de feu dehors, de peur de mettre en danger la croissance de cette forêt naturelle. C'était la première fois, lui dit cet homme naïf, qu'on voyait une forêt pousser toute seule. A cette époque, il allait planter des hêtres à douze kilomètres de sa maison. Pour s'éviter le trajet d'aller-retour - car il avait alors soixante-quinze ans - il envisageait de construire une cabane de pierre sur les lieux mêmes de ses plantations. Ce qu'il fit l'année d'après.
En 1935, une véritable délégation administrative vint examiner la « forêt naturelle ». Il y avait un grand personnage des Eaux et Forêts, un député, des techniciens. On prononça beaucoup de paroles inutiles. On décida de faire quelque chose et, heureusement, on ne fit rien, sinon la seule chose utile : mettre la forêt sous la sauvegarde de l'Etat et interdire qu'on vienne y charbonner. Car il était impossible de n'être pas subjugué par la beauté de ces jeunes arbres en pleine santé. Et elle exerça son pouvoir de séduction sur le député lui-même.

J'avais un ami parmi les capitaines forestiers qui était de la délégation. Je lui expliquai le mystère. Un jour de la semaine d'après, nous allâmes tous les deux à la recherche d'Elzéard Bouffier. Nous le trouvâmes en plein travail, à vingt kilomètres de l'endroit où avait eu lieu l'inspection.

Ce capitaine forestier n'était pas mon ami pour rien. Il connaissait la valeur des choses. Il sut rester silencieux. J'offris les quelques oeufs que j'avais apportés en présent. Nous partageâmes notre casse-croûte en trois et quelques heures passèrent dans la contemplation muette du paysage.

Le côté d'où nous venions était couvert d'arbres de six à sept mètres de haut. Je me souvenais de l'aspect du pays en 1913 : le désert... Le travail paisible et régulier, l'air vif des hauteurs, la frugalité et surtout la sérénité de l'âme avaient donné à ce vieillard une santé presque solennelle. C'était un athlète de Dieu. Je me demandais combien d'hectares il allait encore couvrir d'arbres.

Avant de partir, mon ami fit simplement une brève suggestion à propos de certaines essences auxquelles le terrain d'ici paraissait devoir convenir. Il n'insista pas. « Pour la bonne raison, me dit-il après, que ce bonhomme en sait plus que moi. » Au bout d'une heure de marche - l'idée ayant fait son chemin en lui - il ajouta : « Il en sait beaucoup plus que tout le monde. Il a trouvé un fameux moyen d'être heureux ! »

C'est grâce à ce capitaine que, non seulement la forêt, mais le bonheur de cet homme furent protégés. Il fit nommer trois gardes-forestiers pour cette protection et il les terrorisa de telle façon qu'ils restèrent insensibles à tous les pots-de-vin que les bûcherons pouvaient proposer.
L'oeuvre ne courut un risque grave que pendant la guerre de 1939. Les automobiles marchant alors au gazogène, on n'avait jamais assez de bois. On commença à faire des coupes dans les chênes de 1910, mais ces quartiers sont si loin de tous réseaux routiers que l'entreprise se révéla très mauvaise au point de vue financier. On l'abandonna. Le berger n'avait rien vu. Il était à trente kilomètres de là, continuant paisiblement sa besogne, ignorant la guerre de 39 comme il avait ignoré la guerre de 14.
J'ai vu Elzéard Bouffier pour la dernière fois en juin 1945. Il avait alors quatre-vingt-sept ans. J'avais donc repris la route du désert, mais maintenant, malgré le délabrement dans lequel la guerre avait laissé le pays, il y avait un car qui faisait le service entre la vallée de la Durance et la montagne. Je mis sur le compte de ce moyen de transport relativement rapide le fait que je ne reconnaissais plus les lieux de mes dernières promenades. Il me semblait aussi que l'itinéraire me faisait passer par des endroits nouveaux. J'eus besoin d'un nom de village pour conclure que j'étais bien cependant dans cette région jadis en ruine et désolée. Le car me débarqua à Vergons.

En 1913, ce hameau de dix à douze maisons avait trois habitants. Ils étaient sauvages, se détestaient, vivaient de chasse au piège : à peu près dans l'état physique et moral des hommes de la préhistoire. Les orties dévoraient autour d'eux les maisons abandonnées. Leur condition était sans espoir. Il ne s'agissait pour eux que d'attendre la mort : situation qui ne prédispose guère aux vertus.

Tout était changé. L'air lui-même. Au lieu des bourrasques sèches et brutales qui m'accueillaient jadis, soufflait une brise souple chargée d'odeurs. Un bruit semblable à celui de l'eau venait des hauteurs : c'était celui du vent dans les forêts. Enfin, chose plus étonnante, j'entendis le vrai bruit de l'eau coulant dans un bassin. Je vis qu'on avait fait une fontaine, qu'elle était abondante et, ce qui me toucha le plus, on avait planté près d'elle un tilleul qui pouvait déjà avoir dans les quatre ans, déjà gras, symbole incontestable d'une résurrection.
Par ailleurs, Vergons portait les traces d'un travail pour l'entreprise duquel l'espoir était nécessaire. L'espoir était donc revenu. On avait déblayé les ruines, abattu les pans de murs délabrés et reconstruit cinq maisons. Le hameau comptait désormais vingt-huit habitants dont quatre jeunes ménages. Les maisons neuves, crépies de frais, étaient entourées de jardins potagers où poussaient, mélangés mais alignés, les légumes et les fleurs, les choux et les rosiers, les poireaux et les gueules-de-loup, les céleris et les anémones. C'était désormais un endroit où l'on avait envie d'habiter.

A partir de là, je fis mon chemin à pied. La guerre dont nous sortions à peine n'avait pas permis l'épanouissement complet de la vie, mais Lazare était hors du tombeau. Sur les flans abaissés de la montagne, je voyais de petits champs d'orge et de seigle en herbe; au fond des étroites vallées, quelques prairies verdissaient.

Il n'a fallu que les huit ans qui nous séparent de cette époque pour que tout le pays resplendisse de santé et d'aisance. Sur l'emplacement des ruines que j'avais vues en 1913, s'élèvent maintenant des fermes propres, bien crépies, qui dénotent une vie heureuse et confortable. Les vieilles sources, alimentées par les pluies et les neiges que retiennent les forêts, se sont remises à couler. On en a canalisé les eaux. A côté de chaque ferme, dans des bosquets d'érables, les bassins des fontaines débordent sur des tapis de menthes fraîches. Les villages se sont reconstruits peu à peu. Une population venue des plaines où la terre se vend cher s'est fixée dans le pays, y apportant de la jeunesse, du mouvement, de l'esprit d'aventure. On rencontre dans les chemins des hommes et des femmes bien nourris, des garçons et des filles qui savent rire et ont repris goût aux fêtes campagnardes. Si on compte l'ancienne population, méconnaissable depuis qu'elle vit avec douceur et les nouveaux venus, plus de dix mille personnes doivent leur bonheur à Elzéard Bouffier.

Quand je réfléchis qu'un homme seul, réduit à ses simples ressources physiques et morales, a suffi pour faire surgir du désert ce pays de Canaan, je trouve que, malgré tout, la condition humaine est admirable. Mais, quand je fais le compte de tout ce qu'il a fallu de constance dans la grandeur d'âme et d'acharnement dans la générosité pour obtenir ce résultat, je suis pris d'un immense respect pour ce vieux paysan sans culture qui a su mener à bien cette oeuvre digne de Dieu.

Elzéard Bouffier est mort paisiblement en 1947 à l'hospice de Banon.

O Duplo, por Coelho Netto (encontrado aqui)

[Nota: há contos deste autor bem melhores que este mas infelizmente impossíveis de encontrar na net. Cuirosamente parece ter passado por um periodo de extrema popularidade em Portugal pois a Lwllo publicou a sua obra completa e centenas de volumes aparecem a preços ridiculamente baratos nos alfarrabistas. Recomendo particularmente os contos sobre o sertão.]



- Temos, então, um caso de desdobramento da personalidade do meu querido amigo? - Quem te disse ?

- Laura.

Benito Soares ficou um momento encarado no coronel. Por fim, meneando com a cabeça, desabafou contrariando:

- Laura... Laura faz mal em andar contando essa história por aí. - Que tem?

- Ora! Que tem... Há dias, em casa do Leivas, pouco faltou para que eu rompesse com o Malveiro, a propósito do que se deu comigo, e que lhe contaram não sei onde, entendeu que me devia tomar à sua conta, expondo-me à risota de uns petimetres ridículos que o cercam. Fiz-lhe sentir que não me agradavam os seus remoques e deixei-o com os tais mocinhos, que lhe aplaudem os versos quando ele lhes paga a cerveja ou o chá, aí por essas casas. Não ando a pregar doutrinas: não sou sectário, não freqüento sessões nem leio, sequer, as tais obras de propaganda que pretendem revelar o que se passa no Além da morte. Sou religioso à velha moda, observando a doutrina que aprendi, ainda que não ande beatamente pelas igrejas de círio e ripanço. Cumpro rigorosamente os Mandamentos e os marcos que limitam a minha Crença são os quatro evangelistas; fora de tais "termos" não dou um passo - nem para diante, seguindo os reformadores, que pregam o novo Credo, nem para trás acercando-me de altares pagãos ou adorando ídolos grosseiros. Onde me deixaram meus pais, que foram os meus iniciadores, aí ficarei até morrer.

Contei a Laura a tal história como contaria um acidente qualquer de rua, sem cuidar que ela fizesse do caso assunto de palestra nos salões que freqüenta.

O resultado disso é o que se está dando comigo, aborrecendo-me, irritando-me, porque desconfio de todos os olhares e, se alguém sorri à minha passagem, imaginando que comenta o meu caso, fico logo pelos cabelos.

- Mas, afinal, como foi? Comigo podes abrir-te sem receio. Sabes que, além de discreto, não sou dos que zombam do sobrenatural. Os fatos ai estão: produzem-se, reproduzem-se e, se ninguém os explica, muitos dão deles testemunho e provas e eles, efetivamente, manifestam-se visível, sensivelmente.

Os cépticos encolhem os ombros sorrindo, os adversários, à falta de argumentos com que os destruam, bradam contra os que os apregoam. A verdade, porém, é que nos achamos diante de uma porta de bronze que nos veda um grande mistério, ou melhor - Mistério.

Mas já é muito havermos chegado à porta. Sente-se que além dos túmulos, que são limiares de outro mundo, há alguma coisa que... ninguém sabe o que é.

A porta mantém-se fechada, deixando apenas passar um rastinho de luz no qual flutuam indícios, revelações vagas, como átomos nos raios de sol. Mas deixemos as dissertações para mais tarde. Vamos ao teu caso. Foi, então, um desdobramento da tua personalidade...?

- Não sei que foi. Digo-te apenas que passei os minutos mais angustiosos da minha vida.

Saindo do Alvear, subi vagarosamente a Avenida até a Tabacaria Londres, onde comprei charutos e estive um instante a conversar com o Borges sobre coisas da vida. O Borges anda com a mania dos Marcos; possuí não sei quantos milhões, e espera que a Alemanha recomponha as finanças para aturdir-nos, a nós e ao mundo, com a vida maravilhosa que tem toda em plano. O que me está parecendo é que o pobre está com o juízo em pior estado de que as finanças germânicas. Enfim, deixando o Borges, dirigi-me, sem mais empeços, para a Galeria, onde comprei os jornais.

O meu bonde apareceu logo e logo foi assaltado. Não consegui uma ponta e fiquei entalado no banco da frente, entre um obeso cavalheiro ruivo e uma matrona anafada, dessas que se esparralham.

O bonde partiu e, oprimido pelas duas enxúndias, dificilmente consegui abrir um dos jornais. Pus-me a ler, ou antes: a olhar a página porque, em verdade, a minha atenção vagueava, aí por longe. Os olhos passeavam pelas palavras, sem que o espírito lhe colhesse o sentido, como deve acontecer com os aviadores que vêem, de muito alto, todo o panorama de uma cidade em mancha, sem distinguir os bairros, as ruas, os edifícios, apenas o alvejamento das casas, a placa cintilante do mar, o relevo dos montes. Sentia-me atraído por alguma coisa. Voltei página do jornal - a mesma confusão, o mesmo empastamento. Foi então, que levantei a cabeça, olhando em frente e vi, meu amigo, vi...!

- Viste...?

- A mim mesmo, a mim! Eu, eu em pessoa sentado defronte de mim, no banco da frente, que dá costas à plataforma. Era eu, eu! como refletido em um espelho, e certo estremeci vivamente, incomodando os meus companheiros laterais, porque ambos voltaram-se encarando-se de má sombra.

Pasmado, sem poder desfitar os olhos daquele reflexo, que era, em tudo, eu: nas feições, na atitude, no trajo, não parecido, mas reproduzido em exteriorização, pensei de mim comigo:

"Se tal se dá é que o meu espírito, alma, ou lá o que seja, exalou-se de mim, deixando-me apenas o corpo, como a borboleta deixa o casulo em que se opera a metamorfose. Assim, pois, o que ali se achava, no bonde, era uma massa inerte, sustida pelos dois corpanzis que ladeavam. E, em menos de um segundo, vi todo o horror da cena, que seria cômica, se não fosse trágica, que se daria com a retirada de um daqueles gordos.

Desamparado, o meu corpo vazio tombaria. Dar-se-ia, então, o alarma: todos os passageiros de pé, a verificação da minha morte, o reconhecimento do meu cadáver pelo condutor e a minha entrada fúnebre em casa".

Que angústia, meu amigo! E o outro lá estava em frente a olhar-me, como se gozasse com o meu sofrimento. Lembrei-me, então, de fazer um movimento com os braços, com as mãos; o receio, porém, de ser a minha vontade atendida pelos nervos fez-me hesitar. Mas eu pensava, raciocinava. Sim, mas o corpo não esfria de repente e tais pensamentos e tais raciocínios podiam ser ainda restos de energia d'alma que me houvessem ficado nas células, como fica nas polias o movimento ainda depois do motor parado.

Sentia-me rígido, petrificado e tinha a sensação de frio, como se me fosse congelando, a começar pelos pés. E o outro sempre encarado em mim.

Fiz um esforço supremo como se quisesse levantar o bonde com todos os passageiros que ele continha e, arremessando os braços, pus-me de pé.

A matrona levantou a cabeça com atrevimento e olhou-me com tal carranca que eu pensei que me fosse agatafunhar ou, com a força dos braços, que eram duas coxas, atirar-me do bonde abaixo e o ruivo roncou ameaçadoramente, aprumando a cabeçorra quadrada de ulano com entono de desafio.

Mas que me importavam ameaças A minha alegria era grande e tornou-se maior quando, ao procurar com os olhos o meu outro "eu", não o vi mais.

Teria descido? Não ! Não descera. Tornara a mim, atraído pela vontade, na ânsia de viver, no desespero em que me vi, só comparável ao de alguém que, indo ao fundo, sem saber nadar, debate-se agoniadamente conseguindo elevar-se à tona e gritar a socorro.

E tudo isso, meu amigo, não durou, talvez, um minuto e eu guardo de tais instantes a impressão penosa de um século de sofrimento.

Eis o meu caso, o caso que tantos aborrecimentos me tem trazido pela tagarelice de Laura, a quem o contei, e que o repete por aí, a todo o mundo.

E crença que D. Juan de Maraña, encontrando-se, certa noite, com um saimento, perguntou a um dos que conduziam o esquife: '~ Quem era o morto?" E logo lhe foi respondido:

- É D. Juan de Maraña. Querendo o fidalgo verificar o que lhe dizia o farricoco e outros sinistramente repetiam, afastou o sudário e viu. Efetivamente: o defunto era ele. E tal visão foi que o levou ao arrependimento. Pois comigo a coisa foi num bonde. Eu vi-me, como te estou vendo; a mim, entendes? a mim! Como explicas tal coisa?

- Essas coisas, meu amigo, não se explicam: registam-se, são observações, fatos, elementos para a Ciência do Futuro, que será, talvez, Ciência da Verdade.

«Num notável esforço jornalístico a TVI prepara a cobertura total do jogo desta noite entre Porto e Sporting. São 7 câmaras no estádio e 10 no túnel para lhe oferecerem todas as ocorrências do jogo.»

Uma meia, meia feita
e outra meia por fazer.
Diga lá, minha menina,
quantas meias vêm a ser?

The Yellow Wallpaper [1892] por Charlotte Perkins Gilman (retirado daqui)


It is very seldom that mere ordinary people like John and myself secure ancestral halls for the summer.

A colonial mansion, a hereditary estate, I would say a haunted house, and reach the height of romantic felicity but that would be asking too much of fate!

Still I will proudly declare that there is something queer about it.

Else, why should it be let so cheaply? And why have stood so long untenanted?

John laughs at me, of course, but one expects that in marriage.

John is practical in the extreme. He has no patience with faith, an intense horror of superstition, and he scoffs openly at any talk of things not to be felt and seen and put down in figures.

John is a physician, and -- perhaps (I would not say it to a living soul, of course, but this is dead paper and a great relief to my mind) perhaps that is one reason I do not get well faster.

You see he does not believe I am sick!

And what can one do?

If a physician of high standing, and one's own husband, assures friends and relatives that there is really nothing the matter with one but temporary nervous depression -- a slight hysterical tendency -- what is one to do?

My brother is also a physician, and also of high standing, and he says the same thing.

So I take phosphates or phospites -- whichever it is, and tonics, and journeys, and air, and exercise, and am absolutely forbidden to "work" until I am well again.

Personally, I disagree with their ideas.

Personally, I believe that congenial work, with excitement and change, would do me good.

But what is one to do?

I did write for a while in spite of them; but it does exhaust me a good deal -- having to be so sly about it, or else meet with heavy opposition.

I sometimes fancy that in my condition if I had less opposition and more society and stimulus -- but John says the very worst thing I can do is to think about my condition, and I confess it always makes me feel bad.

So I will let it alone and talk about the house.

The most beautiful place! It is quite alone, standing well back from the road, quite three miles from the village. It makes me think of English places that you read about, for there are hedges and walls and gates that lock, and lots of separate little houses for the gardeners and people.

There is a delicious garden! I never saw such a garden large and shady, full of box-bordered paths, and lined with long grape-covered arbors with seats under them.

There were greenhouses, too, but they are all broken now.

There was some legal trouble, I believe, something about the heirs and coheirs; anyhow, the place has been empty for years.

That spoils my ghostliness, I am afraid, but I don't care -- there is something strange about the house -- I can feel it.

I even said so to John one moonlight evening, but he said what I felt was a draught, and shut the window.

I get unreasonably angry with John sometimes. I'm sure I never used to be so sensitive. I think it is due to this nervous condition.

But John says if I feel so, I shall neglect proper self-control; so I take pains to control myself -- before him, at least, and that makes me very tired.

I don't like our room a bit. I wanted one downstairs that opened on the piazza and had roses all over the window, and such pretty old-fashioned chintz hangings! but John would not hear of it.

He said there was only one window and not room for two beds, and no near room for him if he took another.

He is very careful and loving, and hardly lets me stir without special direction.

I have a schedule prescription for each hour in the day; he takes all care from me, and so I feel basely ungrateful not to value it more.

He said we came here solely on my account, that I was to have perfect rest and all the air I could get. "Your exercise depends on your strength, my dear," said he, "and your food somewhat on your appetite; but air you can absorb all the time." So we took the nursery at the top of the house.

It is a big, airy room, the whole floor nearly, with windows that look all ways, and air and sunshine galore. It was nursery first and then playroom and gymnasium, I should judge; for the windows are barred for little children, and there are rings and things in the walls.

The paint and paper look as if a boys' school had used it. It is stripped off -- the paper -- in great patches all around the head of my bed, about as far as I can reach, and in a great place on the other side of the room low down. I never saw a worse paper in my life.

One of those sprawling flamboyant patterns committing every artistic sin.

It is dull enough to confuse the eye in following pronounced enough to constantly irritate and provoke study, and when you follow the lame uncertain curves for a little distance they suddenly commit suicide -- plunge off at outrageous angles, destroy themselves in unheard of contradictions.

The color is repellent, almost revolting; a smouldering unclean yellow, strangely faded by the slow-turning sunlight.

It is a dull yet lurid orange in some places, a sickly sulphur tint in others.

No wonder the children hated it! I should hate it myself if I had to live in this room long.

There comes John, and I must put this away, -- he hates to have me write a word.


We have been here two weeks, and I haven't felt like writing before, since that first day.

I am sitting by the window now, up in this atrocious nursery, and there is nothing to hinder my writing as much as I please, save lack of strength.

John is away all day, and even some nights when his cases are serious.

I am glad my case is not serious!

But these nervous troubles are dreadfully depressing.

John does not know how much I really suffer. He knows there is no reason to suffer, and that satisfies him.

Of course it is only nervousness. It does weigh on me so not to do my duty in any way!

I meant to be such a help to John, such a real rest and comfort, and here I am a comparative burden already!

Nobody would believe what an effort it is to do what little I am able, -- to dress and entertain, and order things.

It is fortunate Mary is so good with the baby. Such a dear baby!

And yet I cannot be with him, it makes me so nervous.

I suppose John never was nervous in his life. He laughs at me so about this wall-paper!

At first he meant to repaper the room, but afterwards he said that I was letting it get the better of me, and that nothing was worse for a nervous patient than to give way to such fancies.

He said that after the wall-paper was changed it would be the heavy bedstead, and then the barred windows, and then that gate at the head of the stairs, and so on.

"You know the place is doing you good," he said, "and really, dear, I don't care to renovate the house just for a three months' rental."

"Then do let us go downstairs," I said, "there are such pretty rooms there."

Then he took me in his arms and called me a blessed little goose, and said he would go down to the cellar, if I wished, and have it whitewashed into the bargain.

But he is right enough about the beds and windows and things.

It is an airy and comfortable room as any one need wish, and, of course, I would not be so silly as to make him uncomfortable just for a whim.

I'm really getting quite fond of the big room, all but that horrid paper.

Out of one window I can see the garden, those mysterious deepshaded arbors, the riotous old fashioned flowers, and bushes and gnarly trees.

Out of another I get a lovely view of the bay and a little private wharf belonging to the estate. There is a beautiful shaded lane that runs down there from the house. I always fancy I see people walking in these numerous paths and arbors, but John has cautioned me not to g ve way to fancy in the least. He says that with my imaginative power and habit of story-making, a nervous weakness like mine is sure to lead to all manner of excited fancies, and that I ought to use my will and good sense to check the tendency. So I try.

I think sometimes that if I were only well enough to write a little it would relieve the press of ideas and rest me.

But I find I get pretty tired when I try.

It is so discouraging not to have any advice and companionship about my work. When I get really well, John says we will ask Cousin Henry and Julia down for a long visit; but he says he would as soon put fireworks in my pillow case as to let me have those stimulating people about now.

I wish I could get well faster.

But I must not think about that. This paper looks to me as if it knew what a vicious influence it had!

There is a recurrent spot where the pattern lolls like a broken neck and two bulbous eyes stare at you upside down.

I get positively angry with the impertinence of it and the everlastingness. Up and down and sideways they crawl, and those absurd, unblinking eyes are everywhere. There is one place where two breaths didn't match, and the eyes go all up and down the line, one a little higher than the other.

I never saw so much expression in an inanimate thing before, and we all know how much expression they have! I used to lie awake as a child and get more entertainment and terror out of blank walls and plain furniture than most children could find in a toy-store.

I remember what a kindly wink the knobs of our big, old bureau used to have, and there was one chair that always seemed like a strong friend

I used to feel that if any of the other thing' looked too fierce I could always hop into that chair and be safe.

The furniture in this room is no worse than inharmonious, however, for we had to bring it all from downstairs. I suppose when this was used as a playroom they had to take the nursery things out, and no wonder! I never saw such ravages as the children have made here.

The wall-paper, as I said before, is torn off in spots, and it sticketh closer than a brother -- they must have had perseverance as well as hatred.

Then the floor is scratched and gouged and splintered, the plaster itself is dug out here and there, and this great heavy bed which is all we found in the room, looks as if it had been through the wars.

But I don't mind it a bit -- only the paper.

There comes John's sister. Such a dear girl as she is, and so careful of me! I must not let her find me writing.

She is a perfect and enthusiastic housekeeper, and hopes for no better profession. I verily believe she thinks it is the writing which made me sick!

But I can write when she is out, and see her a long way off from these windows.

There is one that commands the road, a lovely shaded winding road, and one that just looks off over the country. A lovely country, too, full of great elms and velvet meadows.

This wall-paper has a kind of sub-pattern in a different shade, a particularly irritating one, for you can only see it in certain lights, and not clearly then.

But in the places where it isn't faded and where the sun is just so I can see a strange, provoking, formless sort of figure, that seems to skulk about behind that silly and conspicuous front design.

There's sister on the stairs!


Well, the Fourth of July is over! The people are all gone and I am tired out. John thought it might do me good to see a little company, so we just had mother and Nellie and the children down for a week.

Of course I didn't do a thing. Jennie sees to everything now.

But it tired me all the same.

John says if I don't pick up faster he shall send me to Weir Mitchell in the fall.

But I don't want to go there at all. I had a friend who was in his hands once, and she says he is just like John and my brother, only more so!

Besides, it is such an undertaking to go so far.

I don't feel as if it was worth while to turn my hand over for anything, and I'm getting dreadfully fretful and querulous.

I cry at nothing, and cry most of the time.

Of course I don't when John is here, or anybody else, but when I am alone.

And I am alone a good deal just now. John is kept in town very often by serious cases, and Jennie is good and lets me alone when I want her to.

So I walk a little in the garden or down that lovely lane, sit on the porch under the roses, and lie down up here a good deal.

I'm getting really fond of the room in spite of the wall-paper. Perhaps because of the wall-paper.

It dwells in my mind so!

I lie here on this great immovable bed -- it is nailed down, I believe -- and follow that pattern about by the hour. It is as good as gymnastics, I assure you. I start, we'll say, at the bottom, down in the corner over there where it has not been touched, and I determine for the thousandth time that I will follow that pointless pattern to some sort of a conclusion.

I know a little of the principle of design, and I know this thing was not arranged on any laws of I radiation, or alternation, or repetition, or symmetry, or anything else that I ever heard of.

It is repeated, of course, by the breadths, but not otherwise.

Looked at in one way each breadth stands alone, the bloated curves and flourishes -- a kind of "debased Romanesque" with delirium tremens -- go waddling up and down in isolated columns of fatuity.

But, on the other hand, they connect diagonally, and the sprawling outlines run off in great slanting waves of optic horror, like a lot of wallowing seaweeds in full chase.

The whole thing goes horizontally, too, at least it seems so, and I exhaust myself in trying to distinguish the order of its going in that direction.

They have used a horizontal breadth for a frieze, and that adds wonderfully to the confusion.

There is one end of the room where it is almost intact, and there, when the crosslights fade and the low sun shines directly upon it, I can almost fancy radiation after all, -- the interminable grotesques seem to form around a common centre and rush off in headlong plunges of equal distraction.

It makes me tired to follow it. I will take a nap I guess.

I don't know why I should write this.

I don't want to.

I don't feel able.

And I know John would think it absurd. But must say what I feel and think in some way -- it is such a relief!

But the effort is getting to be greater than the relief.

Half the time now I am awfully lazy, and lie down ever so much.

John says I mustn't lose my strength, and has me take cod liver oil and lots of tonics and things, to say nothing of ale and wine and rare meat.

Dear John! He loves me very dearly, and hates to have me sick. I tried to have a real earnest reasonable talk with him the other day, and tell him how I wish he would let me go and make a visit to Cousin Henry and Julia.

But he said I wasn't able to go, nor able to stand it after I got there; and I did not make out a very good case for myself, for I was crying before I had finished.

It is getting to be a great effort for me to think straight. Just this nervous weakness I suppose.

And dear John gathered me up in his arms, and just carried me upstairs and laid me on the bed, and sat by me and read to me till it tired my head.

He said I was his darling and his comfort and all he had, and that I must take care of myself for his sake, and keep well.

He says no one but myself can help me out of it, that I must use my will and self-control and not let any silly fancies run away with me.

There's one comfort, the baby is well and happy, and does not have to occupy this nursery with the horrid wall-paper.

If we had not used it, that blessed child would have! What a fortunate escape! Why, I wouldn't have a child of mine, an impressionable little thing, live in such a room for worlds.

I never thought of it before, but it is lucky that John kept me here after all, I can stand it so much easier than a baby, you see.

Of course I never mention it to them any more -- I am too wise, -- but I keep watch of it all the same.

There are things in that paper that nobody knows but me, or ever will.

Behind that outside pattern the dim shapes get clearer every day.

It is always the same shape, only very numerous.

And it is like a woman stooping down and creeping about behind that pattern. I don't like it a bit. I wonder -- I begin to think -- I wish John would take me away from here!

It is so hard to talk with John about my case, because he is so wise, and because he loves me so.

But I tried it last night.

It was moonlight. The moon shines in all around just as the sun does.

I hate to see it sometimes, it creeps so slowly, and always comes in by one window or another.

John was asleep and I hated to waken him, so I kept still and watched the moonlight on that undulating wall-paper till I felt creepy.

The faint figure behind seemed to shake the pattern, just as if she wanted to get out.

I got up softly and went to feel and see if the paper did move, and when I came back John was awake.

"What is it, little girl?" he said. "Don't go walking about like that -- you'll get cold."

I thought it was a good time to talk, so I told him that I really was not gaining here, and that I wished he would take me away.

"Why darling!" said he, "our lease will be up in three weeks, and I can't see how to leave before.

"The repairs are not done at home, and I cannot possibly leave town just now. Of course if you were in any danger, I could and would, but you really are better, dear, whether you can see it or not. I am a doctor, dear, and I know. You are gaining flesh and color, your appetite is better, I feel really much easier about you."

"I don't weigh a bit more," said I, "nor as much; and my appetite may be better in the evening when you are here, but it is worse in the morning when you are away!"

"Bless her little heart!" said he with a big hug, "she shall be as sick as she pleases! But now let's improve the shining hours by going to sleep, and talk about it in the morning!"

"And you won't go away?" I asked gloomily.

"Why, how can I, dear? It is only three weeks more and then we will take a nice little trip of a few days while Jennie is getting the house ready. Really dear you are better! "

"Better in body perhaps -- " I began, and stopped short, for he sat up straight and looked at me with such a stern, reproachful look that I could not say another word.

"My darling," said he, "I beg of you, for my sake and for our child's sake, as well as for your own, that you will never for one instant let that idea enter your mind! There is nothing so dangerous, so fascinating, to a temperament like yours. It is a false and foolish fancy. Can you not trust me as a physician when I tell you so?"

So of course I said no more on that score, and we went to sleep before long. He thought I was asleep first, but I wasn't, and lay there for hours trying to decide whether that front pattern and the back pattern really did move together or separately.


On a pattern like this, by daylight, there is a lack of sequence, a defiance of law, that is a constant irritant to a normal mind.

The color is hideous enough, and unreliable enough, and infuriating enough, but the pattern is torturing.

You think you have mastered it, but just as you get well underway in following, it turns a back somersault and there you are. It slaps you in the face, knocks you down, and tramples upon you. It is like a bad dream.

The outside pattern is a florid arabesque, reminding one of a fungus. If you can imagine a toadstool in joints, an interminable string of toadstools, budding and sprouting in endless convolutions -- why, that is something like it.

That is, sometimes!

There is one marked peculiarity about this paper, a thing nobody seems to notice but myself and that is that it changes as the light changes.

When the sun shoots in through the east window -- I always watch for that first long, straight ray -- it changes so quickly that I never can quite believe it.

That is why I watch it always.

By moonlight -- the moon shines in all night when there is a moon -- I wouldn't know it was the same paper.

At night in any kind of light, in twilight, candle light, lamplight, and worst of all by moonlight, it becomes bars! The outside pattern I mean, and the woman behind it is as plain as can be.

I didn't realize for a long time what the thing was that showed behind, that dim sub-pattern, but l now I am quite sure it is a woman.

By daylight she is subdued, quiet. I fancy it is the pattern that keeps her so still. It is so puzzling. It keeps me quiet by the hour.

I lie down ever so much now. John says it is good for me, and to sleep all I can.

Indeed he started the habit by making me lie down for an hour after each meal.

It is a very bad habit I am convinced, for you see I don't sleep.

And that cultivates deceit, for I don't tell them I'm awake -- O no!

The fact is I am getting a little afraid of John.

He seems very queer sometimes, and even Jennie has an inexplicable look.

It strikes me occasionally, just as a scientific hypothesis, -- that perhaps it is the paper!

I have watched John when he did not know I was looking, and come into the room suddenly on the most innocent excuses, and I've caught him several times looking at the paper! And Jennie too. I caught Jennie with her hand on it once.

She didn't know I was in the room, and when I asked her in a quiet, a very quiet voice, with the most restrained manner possible, what she was doing with the paper -- she turned around as if she had been caught stealing, and looked quite angry -- asked me why I should frighten her so!

Then she said that the paper stained everything it touched, that she had found yellow smooches on all my clothes and John's, and she wished we would be more careful!

Did not that sound innocent? But I know she was studying that pattern, and I am determined that nobody shall find it out but myself!

Life is very much more exciting now than it used to be. You see I have something more to expect, to look forward to, to watch. I really do eat better, and am more quiet than I was.

John is so pleased to see me improve! He laughed a little the other day, and said I seemed to be flourishing in spite of my wall-paper.

I turned it off with a laugh. I had no intention of telling him it was because of the wall-paper -- he would make fun of me. He might even want to take me away.

I don't want to leave now until I have found it out. There is a week more, and I think that will be enough.


I'm feeling ever so much better! I don't sleep much at night, for it is so interesting to watch developments; but I sleep a good deal in the daytime.

In the daytime it is tiresome and perplexing.

There are always new shoots on the fungus, and new shades of yellow all over it. I cannot keep count of them, though I have tried conscientiously.

It is the strangest yellow, that wall-paper! It makes me think of all the yellow things I ever saw -- not beautiful ones like buttercups, but old foul, bad yellow things.

But there is something else about that paper -- the smell! I noticed it the moment we came into the room, but with so much air and sun it was not bad. Now we have had a week of fog and rain, and whether the windows are open or not, the smell is here.

It creeps all over the house.

I find it hovering in the dining-room, skulking in the parlor, hiding in the hall, lying in wait for me on the stairs.

It gets into my hair.

Even when I go to ride, if I turn my head suddenly and surprise it -- there is that smell!

Such a peculiar odor, too! I have spent hours in trying to analyze it, to find what it smelled like.

It is not bad -- at first, and very gentle, but quite the subtlest, most enduring odor I ever met.

In this damp weather it is awful, I wake up in the night and find it hanging over me.

It used to disturb me at first. I thought seriously of burning the house -- to reach the smell.

But now I am used to it. The only thing I can think of that it is like is the color of the paper! A yellow smell.

There is a very funny mark on this wall, low down, near the mopboard. A streak that runs round the room. It goes behind every piece of furniture, except the bed, a long, straight, even smooch, as if it had been rubbed over and over.

I wonder how it was done and who did it, and what they did it for. Round and round and round -- round and round and round -- it makes me dizzy!

I really have discovered something at last.

Through watching so much at night, when it changes so, I have finally found out.

The front pattern does move -- and no wonder! The woman behind shakes it!

Sometimes I think there are a great many women behind, and sometimes only one, and she crawls around fast, and her crawling shakes it all over.

Then in the very bright spots she keeps still, and in the very shady spots she just takes hold of the bars and shakes them hard.

And she is all the time trying to climb through. But nobody could climb through that pattern -- it strangles so; I think that is why it has so many heads.

They get through, and then the pattern strangles them off and turns them upside down, and makes their eyes white!

If those heads were covered or taken off it would not be half so bad.

I think that woman gets out in the daytime!

And I'll tell you why -- privately -- I've seen her!

I can see her out of every one of my windows!

It is the same woman, I know, for she is always creeping, and most women do not creep by daylight.

I see her on that long road under the trees, creeping along, and when a carriage comes she hides under the blackberry vines.

I don't blame her a bit. It must be very humiliating to be caught creeping by daylight!

I always lock the door when I creep by daylight. I can't do it at night, for I know John would suspect something at once.

And John is so queer now, that I don't want to irritate him. I wish he would take another room! Besides, I don't want anybody to get that woman out at night but myself.

I often wonder if I could see her out of all the windows at once.

But, turn as fast as I can, I can only see out of one at one time.

And though I always see her, she may be able to creep faster than I can turn!

I have watched her sometimes away off in the open country, creeping as fast as a cloud shadow in a high wind.


If only that top pattern could be gotten off from the under one! I mean to try it, little by little.

I have found out another funny thing, but I shan't tell it this time! It does not do to trust people too much.

There are only two more days to get this paper off, and I believe John is beginning to notice. I don't like the look in his eyes.

And I heard him ask Jennie a lot of professional questions about me. She had a very good report to give.

She said I slept a good deal in the daytime.

John knows I don't sleep very well at night, for all I'm so quiet!

He asked me all sorts of questions, too, and pretended to be very loving and kind.

As if I couldn't see through him!

Still, I don't wonder he acts so, sleeping under this paper for three months.

It only interests me, but I feel sure John and Jennie are secretly affected by it.


Hurrah! This is the last day, but it is enough. John to stay in town over night, and won't be out until this evening.

Jennie wanted to sleep with me -- the sly thing! but I told her I should undoubtedly rest better for a night all alone.

That was clever, for really I wasn't alone a bit! As soon as it was moonlight and that poor thing began to crawl and shake the pattern, I got up and ran to help her.

I pulled and she shook, I shook and she pulled, and before morning we had peeled off yards of that paper.

A strip about as high as my head and half around the room.

And then when the sun came and that awful pattern began to laugh at me, I declared I would finish it to-day!

We go away to-morrow, and they are moving all my furniture down again to leave things as they were before.

Jennie looked at the wall in amazement, but I told her merrily that I did it out of pure spite at the vicious thing.

She laughed and said she wouldn't mind doing it herself, but I must not get tired.

How she betrayed herself that time!

But I am here, and no person touches this but me, -- not alive !

She tried to get me out of the room -- it was too patent! But I said it was so quiet and empty and clean now that I believed I would lie down again and sleep all I could; and not to wake me even for dinner -- I would call when I woke.

So now she is gone, and the servants are gone, and the things are gone, and there is nothing left but that great bedstead nailed down, with the canvas mattress we found on it.

We shall sleep downstairs to-night, and take the boat home to-morrow.
I quite enjoy the room, now it is bare again.
How those children did tear about here!

This bedstead is fairly gnawed!
But I must get to work.
I have locked the door and thrown the key down into the front path.
I don't want to go out, and I don't want to have anybody come in, till John comes.
I want to astonish him.
I've got a rope up here that even Jennie did not find. If that woman does get out, and tries to get away, I can tie her!
But I forgot I could not reach far without anything to stand on!
This bed will not move!
I tried to lift and push it until I was lame, and then I got so angry I bit off a little piece at one corner -- but it hurt my teeth.
Then I peeled off all the paper I could reach standing on the floor. It sticks horribly and the pattern just enjoys it! All those strangled heads and bulbous eyes and waddling fungus growths just shriek with derision!
I am getting angry enough to do something desperate. To jump out of the window would be admirable exercise, but the bars are too strong even to try.
Besides I wouldn't do it. Of course not. I know well enough that a step like that is improper and might be misconstrued.
I don't like to look out of the windows even -- there are so many of those creeping women, and they creep so fast.
I wonder if they all come out of that wall-paper as I did?
But I am securely fastened now by my well hidden rope -- you don't get me out in the road there!
I suppose I shall have to get back behind the pattern when it comes night, and that is hard!

It is so pleasant to be out in this great room and creep around as I please!
I don't want to go outside. I won't, even if Jennie asks me to.
For outside you have to creep on the ground, and everything is green instead of yellow.
But here I can creep smoothly on the floor, and my shoulder just fits in that long smooch around the wall, so I cannot lose my way.
Why there's John at the door!
It is no use, young man, you can't open it!
How he does call and pound!
Now he's crying for an axe.
It would be a shame to break down that beautiful door!
"John dear!" said I in the gentlest voice, "the key is down by the front steps, under a plantain leaf! "
That silenced him for a few moments.
Then he said very quietly indeed, "Open the door, my darling!"
"I can't," said I. "The key is down by the front door under a plantain leaf!"
And then I said it again, several times, very gently and slowly, and said it so often that he had to go and see, and he got it of course, and came in. He stopped short by the door.
"What is the matter?" he cried. "For God's sake, what are you doing!"
I kept on creeping just the same, but I looked at him over my shoulder.
"I've got out at last," said I, "in spite of you and Jane. And I've pulled off most of the paper, so you can't put me back! "

Now why should that man have fainted? But he did, and right across my path by the wall, so that I had to creep over him every time!

O Sérgio Bastos do excelente blogue «Ebook Portugal» apanhou-me aqui a deambular sobre o futuro e presente da edição digital e fez-me uma entrevista. Caso queiram perder uns minutos do vosso tempo podem consultá-la aqui.

Há uns dias atrás, quando Santana Lopes foi condecorado pelo Presidente da República, estava em casa e ouvi quase todos os telejornais da Sic, Sic notícias, RTP e TVI (e também alguns da rádio porque o meu gato só adormece com a TSF). Percebi que para além do Santana houve mais uns quantos condecorados. Não creio que nenhum destes serviços informativos tenha comunicado os seus nomes. Se isto não é um retrato assustador da qualidade do jornalismo em Portugal...

"Perfeito Coração", a maior história de amor desde Romeu e Julieta...

Tenho falado com muita gente que anuncia e defende a chegada próxima do digital à edição de literatura. Eu faço uma análise algo diferente. se é certo que há muitos entusiasmados com a questão, não vejo, ainda assim, uma grande maioria dos "leitores habituais" a fazer essa transição.

Há vários motivos para isso. Inerente ao facto de se ser um "leitor" está uma propensão para a desconfiança das tecnologias. Isto, claro está, no que toca a uma geração de leitores com alguns anos de prática. No que toca aos novos leitores, os quais, só esporadicamente eram incentivados a ler, poderão experimentar por curiosidade mas se não tiverem hábitos de leitura, ficarão pela curiosidade3 ou pelo lado técnico-pratico de textos disponíveis online.

Mas não ficamos por aqui: o livro é uma comodidade cultural logo, um bem prescindível: os editores que digam quanto sentem as crises económicas ou mesmo a concorrência (lembram-se de uma feira do livro que coincidiu há poucos anos com um evento desportivo futebolístico e com um rock in rio?). O livro digital, podendo ser mais barato - e nunca será muito mais - vai estar associado a leitores digitais, que são caros. Ora se pensarmos que os leitores habituais já se queixam do preço dos livros...

Mas há mais, ainda não há um modelo internacional racional e aceitável para resolver as questões de direitos e traduções e coisas que tais. Enquanto um modelo legal e comercial não for implementado e testado - e  acreditem que não vai ser Portugal a fazê-lo pela dimensão e falta de meios - será implementado no resto do mundo adequando-se às realidades de cada país.

Daí que eu defenda que a chegada do livro digital será uma realidade em Portugal mas apenas dentro de 10 a 20 anos. É preciso resolver uma questão funcional e comercial, uma questão legal e, no nosso país, uma questão geracional e cultural. E se, nos livros técnicos ainda acho que, por alto a questão poderá resolver-se com alguma celeridade, na literatura a coisa será mais complicada.

... trabalho (também procuro a Susana que ainda não passou em minha casa para vir buscar a prenda de Natal mas isso é outra questão).

A sério que estou mesmo a ficar desesperado. Em 3 editoras disseram que eu era "over-qualified". Todas essas e outras ainda pediram-me planos editoriais. Acho que deve ser para tirar a limpo se realmente era eu que escolhia alguma coisa na Cavalo de Ferro ou apenas o Diogo. Infelizmente eu nunca fui muito de dar a cara e as pessoas conhecem mais o Diogo. O meu trabalho era no escritório.

Os planos editoriais foram entregues. Para muitos fiz contas, para outros apenas listagens de títulos (e o meu passado aconselhava-me a que não o fizesse). Depois pelos motivos mais abstrusos não há afinal possibilidades. Percebo em muitos dos meus interlocutores que nunca tinham contado comigo, apenas estavam a confirmar se eu não tinha inventado a pólvora.

Das mais de 20 entevistas a que fui muitos dos interlocutores não voltaram a dar notícias e desapareceram para parte incerta, outros transmitiram "nãos" mais ou menos rebuscados, houve os tais que disseram que eu tinha qualificações a mais e sobraram duas hipóteses que estão ainda em aberto mas nas quais infelizmente não tenho muitas esperanças.

O que procuro explicar às pessoas é que estou à procura de emprego na área que domino e onde sei que posso ser útil mas sei que lugares de editor não crescem nas árvores. Se alguém souber de alguma posição como assistente editorial ou algo do género, avise.

Não tenho muitas ilusões. Se houvesse algo para mim, já teria surgido. Hoje tive uma furiazinha, das que, de vez em quando me acometem, e mandei e-mails para um monte de editoras, mesmo as mais improváveis. Acho que terei de fazer mais programas editoriais, irei a mais entrevistas e continuarei na mesma. Para a semana vou ao centro de emprego e aceito a primeira coisa que surgir. Tipo babysitter de animais.

Hoje, o gato miou quando descobriu que não havia mais divisões para explorar... (desculpa Alexandre)

Telefonaram-me a perguntar se conhecia alguém que quisesse um gato que tinha sido encontrado numa árvore muito alta no jardim de Campo de Ourique. Que quem o tinha encontrado já o tinha levado ao veterinário, que tinha feito análises, que tinha sido castrado e vacinado. Que era muito simpático, corajoso, explorador e habituado a fazer companhia. Que tinha no máximo uns 8 mesitos. Que estava magrinho.

Que quem o encontrou, telefonou para os bombeiros para que viessem salvar o gato preso na árvore, a mais de 3 metros do chão. Que os bombeiros estavam, nessa noite muito ocupados com um grande incêncio. Que a pessoa insistiu e voltou a insistir, amante de gatos que é, não dando paz aos telefonistas que, mediante a pressão, cederam e lá mandaram um piquete.

The Lady or the tiger? - por Frank R. Stockton (retirado daqui).

In the very olden time there lived a semi-barbaric king, whose ideas, though somewhat polished and sharpened by the progressiveness of distant Latin neighbors, were still large, florid, and untrammeled, as became the half of him which was barbaric. He was a man of exuberant fancy, and, withal, of an authority so irresistible that, at his will, he turned his varied fancies into facts. He was greatly given to self-communing, and, when he and himself agreed upon anything, the thing was done. When every member of his domestic and political systems moved smoothly in its appointed course, his nature was bland and genial; but, whenever there was a little hitch, and some of his orbs got out of their orbits, he was blander and more genial still, for nothing pleased him so much as to make the crooked straight and crush down uneven places.


Among the borrowed notions by which his barbarism had become semified was that of the public arena, in which, by exhibitions of manly and beastly valor, the minds of his subjects were refined and cultured.

But even here the exuberant and barbaric fancy asserted itself. The arena of the king was built, not to give the people an opportunity of hearing the rhapsodies of dying gladiators, nor to enable them to view the inevitable conclusion of a conflict between religious opinions and hungry jaws, but for purposes far better adapted to widen and develop the mental energies of the people. This vast amphitheater, with its encircling galleries, its mysterious vaults, and its unseen passages, was an agent of poetic justice, in which crime was punished, or virtue rewarded, by the decrees of an impartial and incorruptible chance.

When a subject was accused of a crime of sufficient importance to interest the king, public notice was given that on an appointed day the fate of the accused person would be decided in the king's arena, a structure which well deserved its name, for, although its form and plan were borrowed from afar, its purpose emanated solely from the brain of this man, who, every barleycorn a king, knew no tradition to which he owed more allegiance than pleased his fancy, and who ingrafted on every adopted form of human thought and action the rich growth of his barbaric idealism.

When all the people had assembled in the galleries, and the king, surrounded by his court, sat high up on his throne of royal state on one side of the arena, he gave a signal, a door beneath him opened, and the accused subject stepped out into the amphitheater. Directly opposite him, on the other side of the enclosed space, were two doors, exactly alike and side by side. It was the duty and the privilege of the person on trial to walk directly to these doors and open one of them. He could open either door he pleased; he was subject to no guidance or influence but that of the aforementioned impartial and incorruptible chance. If he opened the one, there came out of it a hungry tiger, the fiercest and most cruel that could be procured, which immediately sprang upon him and tore him to pieces as a punishment for his guilt. The moment that the case of the criminal was thus decided, doleful iron bells were clanged, great wails went up from the hired mourners posted on the outer rim of the arena, and the vast audience, with bowed heads and downcast hearts, wended slowly their homeward way, mourning greatly that one so young and fair, or so old and respected, should have merited so dire a fate.

But, if the accused person opened the other door, there came forth from it a lady, the most suitable to his years and station that his majesty could select among his fair subjects, and to this lady he was immediately married, as a reward of his innocence. It mattered not that he might already possess a wife and family, or that his affections might be engaged upon an object of his own selection; the king allowed no such subordinate arrangements to interfere with his great scheme of retribution and reward. The exercises, as in the other instance, took place immediately, and in the arena. Another door opened beneath the king, and a priest, followed by a band of choristers, and dancing maidens blowing joyous airs on golden horns and treading an epithalamic measure, advanced to where the pair stood, side by side, and the wedding was promptly and cheerily solemnized. Then the gay brass bells rang forth their merry peals, the people shouted glad hurrahs, and the innocent man, preceded by children strewing flowers on his path, led his bride to his home.

This was the king's semi-barbaric method of administering justice. Its perfect fairness is obvious. The criminal could not know out of which door would come the lady; he opened either he pleased, without having the slightest idea whether, in the next instant, he was to be devoured or married. On some occasions the tiger came out of one door, and on some out of the other. The decisions of this tribunal were not only fair, they were positively determinate: the accused person was instantly punished if he found himself guilty, and, if innocent, he was rewarded on the spot, whether he liked it or not. There was no escape from the judgments of the king's arena.

The institution was a very popular one. When the people gathered together on one of the great trial days, they never knew whether they were to witness a bloody slaughter or a hilarious wedding. This element of uncertainty lent an interest to the occasion which it could not otherwise have attained. Thus, the masses were entertained and pleased, and the thinking part of the community could bring no charge of unfairness against this plan, for did not the accused person have the whole matter in his own hands?

This semi-barbaric king had a daughter as blooming as his most florid fancies, and with a soul as fervent and imperious as his own. As is usual in such cases, she was the apple of his eye, and was loved by him above all humanity. Among his courtiers was a young man of that fineness of blood and lowness of station common to the conventional heroes of romance who love royal maidens. This royal maiden was well satisfied with her lover, for he was handsome and brave to a degree unsurpassed in all this kingdom, and she loved him with an ardor that had enough of barbarism in it to make it exceedingly warm and strong. This love affair moved on happily for many months, until one day the king happened to discover its existence. He did not hesitate nor waver in regard to his duty in the premises. The youth was immediately cast into prison, and a day was appointed for his trial in the king's arena. This, of course, was an especially important occasion, and his majesty, as well as all the people, was greatly interested in the workings and development of this trial. Never before had such a case occurred; never before had a subject dared to love the daughter of the king. In after years such things became commonplace enough, but then they were in no slight degree novel and startling.

The tiger-cages of the kingdom were searched for the most savage and relentless beasts, from which the fiercest monster might be selected for the arena; and the ranks of maiden youth and beauty throughout the land were carefully surveyed by competent judges in order that the young man might have a fitting bride in case fate did not determine for him a different destiny. Of course, everybody knew that the deed with which the accused was charged had been done. He had loved the princess, and neither he, she, nor any one else, thought of denying the fact; but the king would not think of allowing any fact of this kind to interfere with the workings of the tribunal, in which he took such great delight and satisfaction. No matter how the affair turned out, the youth would be disposed of, and the king would take an aesthetic pleasure in watching the course of events, which would determine whether or not the young man had done wrong in allowing himself to love the princess.

The appointed day arrived. From far and near the people gathered, and thronged the great galleries of the arena, and crowds, unable to gain admittance, massed themselves against its outside walls. The king and his court were in their places, opposite the twin doors, those fateful portals, so terrible in their similarity.

All was ready. The signal was given. A door beneath the royal party opened, and the lover of the princess walked into the arena. Tall, beautiful, fair, his appearance was greeted with a low hum of admiration and anxiety. Half the audience had not known so grand a youth had lived among them. No wonder the princess loved him! What a terrible thing for him to be there!

As the youth advanced into the arena he turned, as the custom was, to bow to the king, but he did not think at all of that royal personage. His eyes were fixed upon the princess, who sat to the right of her father. Had it not been for the moiety of barbarism in her nature it is probable that lady would not have been there, but her intense and fervid soul would not allow her to be absent on an occasion in which she was so terribly interested. From the moment that the decree had gone forth that her lover should decide his fate in the king's arena, she had thought of nothing, night or day, but this great event and the various subjects connected with it. Possessed of more power, influence, and force of character than any one who had ever before been interested in such a case, she had done what no other person had done - she had possessed herself of the secret of the doors. She knew in which of the two rooms, that lay behind those doors, stood the cage of the tiger, with its open front, and in which waited the lady. Through these thick doors, heavily curtained with skins on the inside, it was impossible that any noise or suggestion should come from within to the person who should approach to raise the latch of one of them. But gold, and the power of a woman's will, had brought the secret to the princess.

And not only did she know in which room stood the lady ready to emerge, all blushing and radiant, should her door be opened, but she knew who the lady was. It was one of the fairest and loveliest of the damsels of the court who had been selected as the reward of the accused youth, should he be proved innocent of the crime of aspiring to one so far above him; and the princess hated her. Often had she seen, or imagined that she had seen, this fair creature throwing glances of admiration upon the person of her lover, and sometimes she thought these glances were perceived, and even returned. Now and then she had seen them talking together; it was but for a moment or two, but much can be said in a brief space; it may have been on most unimportant topics, but how could she know that? The girl was lovely, but she had dared to raise her eyes to the loved one of the princess; and, with all the intensity of the savage blood transmitted to her through long lines of wholly barbaric ancestors, she hated the woman who blushed and trembled behind that silent door.

When her lover turned and looked at her, and his eye met hers as she sat there, paler and whiter than any one in the vast ocean of anxious faces about her, he saw, by that power of quick perception which is given to those whose souls are one, that she knew behind which door crouched the tiger, and behind which stood the lady. He had expected her to know it. He understood her nature, and his soul was assured that she would never rest until she had made plain to herself this thing, hidden to all other lookers-on, even to the king. The only hope for the youth in which there was any element of certainty was based upon the success of the princess in discovering this mystery; and the moment he looked upon her, he saw she had succeeded, as in his soul he knew she would succeed.

Then it was that his quick and anxious glance asked the question: "Which?" It was as plain to her as if he shouted it from where he stood. There was not an instant to be lost. The question was asked in a flash; it must be answered in another.

Her right arm lay on the cushioned parapet before her. She raised her hand, and made a slight, quick movement toward the right. No one but her lover saw her. Every eye but his was fixed on the man in the arena.

He turned, and with a firm and rapid step he walked across the empty space. Every heart stopped beating, every breath was held, every eye was fixed immovably upon that man. Without the slightest hesitation, he went to the door on the right, and opened it.

Now, the point of the story is this: Did the tiger come out of that door, or did the lady ?

The more we reflect upon this question, the harder it is to answer. It involves a study of the human heart which leads us through devious mazes of passion, out of which it is difficult to find our way. Think of it, fair reader, not as if the decision of the question depended upon yourself, but upon that hot-blooded, semi-barbaric princess, her soul at a white heat beneath the combined fires of despair and jealousy. She had lost him, but who should have him?

How often, in her waking hours and in her dreams, had she started in wild horror, and covered her face with her hands as she thought of her lover opening the door on the other side of which waited the cruel fangs of the tiger!

But how much oftener had she seen him at the other door! How in her grievous reveries had she gnashed her teeth, and torn her hair, when she saw his start of rapturous delight as he opened the door of the lady! How her soul had burned in agony when she had seen him rush to meet that woman, with her flushing cheek and sparkling eye of triumph; when she had seen him lead her forth, his whole frame kindled with the joy of recovered life; when she had heard the glad shouts from the multitude, and the wild ringing of the happy bells; when she had seen the priest, with his joyous followers, advance to the couple, and make them man and wife before her very eyes; and when she had seen them walk away together upon their path of flowers, followed by the tremendous shouts of the hilarious multitude, in which her one despairing shriek was lost and drowned!

Would it not be better for him to die at once, and go to wait for her in the blessed regions of semi-barbaric futurity?

And yet, that awful tiger, those shrieks, that blood!

Her decision had been indicated in an instant, but it had been made after days and nights of anguished deliberation. She had known she would be asked, she had decided what she would answer, and, without the slightest hesitation, she had moved her hand to the right.

The question of her decision is one not to be lightly considered, and it is not for me to presume to set myself up as the one person able to answer it. And so I leave it with all of you: Which came out of the opened door - the lady, or the tiger?